Blue Too Soon

I felt Blue too soon
Because I wanted it to be you
I felt Blue too soon
Because your eyes lit up like moons
I felt Blue too soon
Without really looking at you
I felt Blue too soon
Even through our trip was doomed
I felt Blue too soon
Because I thought I believed in you
I felt Blue too soon
When the flowers hadn't bloomed
I felt Blue too soon
But it was too good to be true
I felt Blue too soon
And it wasn't ever really for you

Finding Someone

I was hoping to find someone

And at first, I found you

And you were beautiful and turbulent

But perpetually untrue

I thought I was left with no one

And maybe I was back then

Being alone just couldn’t compare

To the way that things had been

Then I heard you found someone

And my world turned upside down

Because suddenly I realized

You wouldn’t be coming back around

And so I too searched for someone

To fill the void that once was you

And the memories of your company

Still choked me ‘til I was blue

And I failed to find anyone

Who could make me feel a thing

And when it came right down to it

I didn’t have much to bring

And so I searched for someone

In the depths of all that was me

Looked past the pushing it away

I was surprised with what I could see

And so I became someone

Someone I would want to meet

A girl who was strong but gentle at heart

And who refused to accept defeat

And so I found someone

And my chains and angst were freed

I had tried to make someone else

Fill what all along was me

And so I am someone

Who is proud and all alone

And maybe someone, somewhere

Will make this heart a home

 -SZ

Angsty College Poem #1

I know I have to move on soon
'Cause it'll be 6 months in June
But I've got paintings in my head
Of you just laying in my bed

I don't regret a single second
With every heartbreak, there's a lesson
A phoenix can't rise without a fire
In this case, when you trust a liar

Scribbling messages in the dirt, of words you said and how they hurt

& I'll spring forward
With every fall back
Let the baggage
Begin to unpack
And scream the words
I know are true
Fuck your friends for telling me
That I could believe in you

Trying To Pop-Punk

You took another girl to my hometown
You played her notes, you showed her around
And I guess that it's all the time
I just liked the way you said my name

It wasn't perfect, but it was worth it
Looked past the flaws in our design
Thought it was our time; but you weren't on time
I'll drown all my sorrows in red wine

Nobody is looking at you, but me

Now darling, don't you worry
This town is not a jury
Just mind your business and do as you please
Because nobody is looking at you, but me

And please don't become antsy
If you aren't what someone fancies
There's more to your eyes than what they perceive
Because nobody is looking at you, like me

And baby, don't go hiding
When paranoia starts biting
Just know that no one is even tall enough to grasp the branches of your tree
And nobody is looking at you, but me




-SZ
2/26/15