Finding Someone

I was hoping to find someone

And at first, I found you

And you were beautiful and turbulent

But perpetually untrue

I thought I was left with no one

And maybe I was back then

Being alone just couldn’t compare

To the way that things had been

Then I heard you found someone

And my world turned upside down

Because suddenly I realized

You wouldn’t be coming back around

And so I too searched for someone

To fill the void that once was you

And the memories of your company

Still choked me ‘til I was blue

And I failed to find anyone

Who could make me feel a thing

And when it came right down to it

I didn’t have much to bring

And so I searched for someone

In the depths of all that was me

Looked past the pushing it away

I was surprised with what I could see

And so I became someone

Someone I would want to meet

A girl who was strong but gentle at heart

And who refused to accept defeat

And so I found someone

And my chains and angst were freed

I had tried to make someone else

Fill what all along was me

And so I am someone

Who is proud and all alone

And maybe someone, somewhere

Will make this heart a home

 -SZ

It's Okay To Be Alone

    I just want to speak to the girls who are feeling alone, and have thrown themselves on the bed in tears because they feel so much. And it may seem like the rest of the world doesn't feel the way you do, and maybe you're right, because being able to feel so deeply is a gift and a curse. It's a gift because you experience so deeply and realistically that they don't even understand. And it's a curse because they can't understand. It's difficult to empathize with the impossible for us.
    Don't settle. Ever. I don't care if it's a 3-week fling before finals or you're looking for the father of your children. If he doesn't make you feel like the most important and beautiful thing in the world, he doesn't know what he has. And if he steps all over you, challenge him. Women can no longer stand by and be coy; we must be vicious and vital and demand what we deserve. If he bailed, call him out. If he cheated, leave. If he doesn't react like he is losing the greatest prize the world has ever seen, he doesn't realize the value of the woman at his feet. If he doesn't deserve your raw, unkempt brand of affection, take it away from him. Take pride in removing yourself from a situation and keeping your head high. Take pride in being worth the wait. And take pride in the nights you spend in your bed alone, because it's better than feeling empty in a bed that is full.
    It's okay to be alone.
    It's okay to be sad about it.
    What's not okay, is devaluing yourself for immediate gratification.
    What's not fair, is allowing anyone to share in the beauty of your youth who doesn't bask in the gratitude that they have you and you alone.

    You're okay.